This has been a crazy year for us, and the last couple of weeks have imploded. We’ve had employment issues, the possibility of relocation, my uncle’s death, and this morning I found out my cousin’s husband, who I just saw at the funeral last week, is in the hospital with heart issues. There have been other minor disappointments that have felt bigger because of the stress of the circumstances, and yet, when I compare my circumstances to other people’s, I can see how blessed I am. That makes me feel guilty, like I’m not grateful for what I have despite my troubles.
Early this year, I heard “Worn” by 10th Avenue North on the radio for the first time. At the time we were planning Eric’s graduation celebration. All of our parents wanted to come. All of them. I don’t have room for that many people in my house, and I was trying to work out the logistics in my head. When the song came on the radio I almost cried because the lyrics said exactly what I was feeling. Everything turned out better than I imagined, and I’m sure they will this time, too. In the meantime, this is my theme song.